[ Random Thoughts Thread ]

[Andykyu .٠࣪⭑]

waaaaaiiiit my thigh is shaking

 

[Natsuki_Subaru昴]

HGFCYGVHIJ

 

[gyukasa67]

theres nothing to experience
atp the only thing life would give me is a free ride to hell and a small chance for people coming up and murdering me🫩
hmm one chance i have one chance to everything right

ash youre not listening
im telling you theres so much left for you despite the negative

like who bro🫩 everyones js gone

not everyone

i mean genuinely
everyone here means a lot to me and i love the community a lot! of course im not cold enough to hate everyone. everyone has cool stories and are really fun in general! but sometimes people piss me off and then i get mad and start going crazy to the point i doubt everything and then i suddenly seem like i hate everyone i know

i understand how you feel but we're still PEOPLE who love you and thats not something worth giving up so easily

school is empty i mean i might have like two friends but both are a grade above
online has a lot of people but then people end up becoming something i hate
irl has a lot of stuff but no cool people im able to find
anywhere is meh

you have to LIVE and wait
i promise things turn around

 

[gyukasa67]

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now now himiko and himeko! lets think for a second! oh yea! lets listen to music and act stupid until 4 am and yhen end up starting it and then call 911 in the middle of the night saying oh my god!! i stabbed myself on accident in the stomach with a kitchen knife! help me!!

ash please please please dont
with the chances that you live, your life will be hell and monitored at insane rates
please dont do anything

 

[idubilu😍]

omg take me HOME can this trip end already

 

[Andykyu .٠࣪⭑]

ash youre not listening
im telling you theres so much left for you despite the negative

not everyone

i understand how you feel but we're still PEOPLE who love you and thats not something worth giving up so easily

you have to LIVE and wait
i promise things turn around

i dont know how to listen
yea! im gonna get straight A's on my school stuff and when i graduate im gonna become a cannibal serial killer and kill everyone after eating them like how my dad thinks!

like who? awwww yea! you!

I KNOW YOU GUYS ARE PEOPLE AND LOVE ME SO MUCH BUT ION FRIGGIN KNOW HOW TO STOP IT🫩

i have been and im getting TIRED
things will turn around and become even more against me

 

[Andykyu .٠࣪⭑]

ash please please please dont
with the chances that you live, your life will be hell and monitored at insane rates
please dont do anything

i already chose my decision
oh well my life is already hell might as well just start something new
meh maybe

 

[gyukasa67]

I KNOW YOU GUYS ARE PEOPLE AND LOVE ME SO MUCH BUT ION FRIGGIN KNOW HOW TO STOP IT🫩

:c

i have been and im getting TIRED
things will turn around and become even more against me

thatll happen if you do anything BAD
think about it: your parents could check your contacts and then blame your issues on us, then we'd all have to suffer bc parents could call the police on us

 

[gyukasa67]

i already chose my decision
oh well my life is already hell might as well just start something new
meh maybe

ash dont do anything omg you are going to make matters so bad for yourself and everyone who knows you it is never worth it and it never will be

 

[Andykyu .٠࣪⭑]

:c

thatll happen if you do anything BAD
think about it: your parents could check your contacts and then blame your issues on us, then we'd all have to suffer bc parents could call the police on us

well i would never let them blame it on you guys! you all are basically my whole world and i prolly wouldn't be happy at all without any of you guys. ID PROTECT WITH MY WHOLE SOUL TO NOT HAVE YOU GUYS GO THROUGH SOMETHING BAD.

 

[Natsuki_Subaru昴]

WHAT YOU WANTT

 

[Andykyu .٠࣪⭑]

ash dont do anything omg you are going to make matters so bad for yourself and everyone who knows you it is never worth it and it never will be

bad for everyone but good for me! i want to STOP having boring days

 

[gyukasa67]

well i would never let them blame it on you guys! you all are basically my whole world and i prolly wouldn't be happy at all without any of you guys. ID PROTECT WITH MY WHOLE SOUL TO NOT HAVE YOU GUYS GO THROUGH SOMETHING BAD.

well you wouldnt be able to defend us because youd be dead
not trying to sound selfish but youre throwing away so many good things STRUGGLE IS LITERALLY PART OF LIFE you just need something to keep you going
so either you delete all trace of us away and throw your potential life away over emotions youve conquered before or you stay here and let good thingscome toyou

 

[gyukasa67]

bad for everyone but good for me! i want to STOP having boring days

you do realize that sounds selfish right
not trying to invalidate you but if you have so much to keep you going why throw it all away?
boring and unhappy days are only fucking natural and if you want to lose the opportunity of amazing days then so be it because you want to have a permanent and horrible solution to temporary problems that almost everyone has to go through

 

[Andykyu .٠࣪⭑]

well you wouldnt be able to defend us because youd be dead
not trying to sound selfish but youre throwing away so many good things STRUGGLE IS LITERALLY PART OF LIFE you just need something to keep you going
so either you delete all trace of us away and throw your potential life away over emotions youve conquered before or you stay here and let good thingscome toyou

not if i survived
youre not selfish dw i know and im ok with it struggle sucks and ion want it but i got nothing
id rsther not! instead i wanna satisfy myself without having to delete anything!

 

[gyukasa67]

not if i survived

i hope you do
i dont want you to attempt at all
but even so, your parents concern will target towards your phone and then theyll investigat and think we did something
so please at the sake of others too dont do anything
even struggling with issues and SURVIVING is better than this

youre not selfish dw i know and im ok with it struggle sucks and ion want it but i got nothing

well you better find something cus youre not dying

id rsther not! instead i wanna satisfy myself without having to delete anything!

so satisfying yourself at the cost of others?
ash i really need you here and i dont want to even IMAGINE a life without you

 

[Andykyu .٠࣪⭑]

you do realize that sounds selfish right
not trying to invalidate you but if you have so much to keep you going why throw it all away?
boring and unhappy days are only fucking natural and if you want to lose the opportunity of amazing days then so be it because you want to have a permanent and horrible solution to temporary problems that almost everyone has to go through

of course!
i dont even know im js tired
yes!
i already know im selfish and horrible and i know i have horrible solutions to everything. Im actually tired of having to hear about something over and over again i know its horrible and i shouldn't do it but i dont wanna keep going

 

[gyukasa67]

of course!
i dont even know im js tired
yes!
i already know im selfish and horrible and i know i have horrible solutions to everything. Im actually tired of having to hear about something over and over again i know its horrible and i shouldn't do it but i dont wanna keep going

youre not horrible ashlinn youre perfect as is
please keep going, even if its just for a little bit longer, i promise itll be worth it

 

[Andykyu .٠࣪⭑]

i hope you do
i dont want you to attempt at all
but even so, your parents concern will target towards your phone and then theyll investigat and think we did something
so please at the sake of others too dont do anything
even struggling with issues and SURVIVING is better than this

well you better find something cus youre not dying

so satisfying yourself at the cost of others?
ash i really need you here and i dont want to even IMAGINE a life without you

of course!
i dont know what to do with myself anymore
well theyve already suspected it but i wont let it happen!
maybeeee
i guess hmmm

i dont know

itll only be myself of course!
HUH why what

 

[gyukasa67]

of course!
i dont know what to do with myself anymore
well theyve already suspected it but i wont let it happen!
maybeeee
i guess hmmm

well you wont be able to not let it happen cus yo ass will be DEADDD or locked up in tha hospital LIKE???

itll only be myself of course!
HUH why what

because youre someone i really care about and have been vulnerable with and ive learned how to be funnier and nicer partially because of you and you light up my day when we talk and i js cant imagine you gone
so please dont do anything