i'm sorry for being rude about the braids but i'm not sorry for my opinion. We all have them. I just feel it was wrong the way they called me racist when they don't know my back story. I felt so mad and hurt. That many people have never came at me for just having an opinion and I feel like I can't be myself on here. I know how I respond was wrong. I shouldn't have engaged in an argument with people younger then me. I don't know how to make things right with them. Like there really cool and I ruined everything for having an opinion. I feel like shit for even speaking. They all hate me. Honestly I get where they are coming from about tarzzan and get that he is a bit rude about the black cultural but I hate the way they act like I'm not a part of the culture. I have native american in me and just cause I look white doesn't mean i'm useless. I know sum white people like to come off racist and I hate them for that. I was in a racist school and saw these black kids be bullied. I hated it and that was mainly why I got into fights. When I was younger I said the n word yes admit that but what they don't know I was in the wrong group of kids and yes I shouldn't have said that it is disgusting. I'm not a bad person and I felt they portrayed me as one. My mental health isn't the fault I know that. I wasn't using my mental health as the problem. I very bad at expressing my feelings. I can't get the right words to talk to people and I come off as a rude person. I just wish I could make things right. I wish I could go back and just keep my mouth shut. They were right about tarzzan I know that as I started researching what made me mad was the fact about the braids. I was raised on wearing braids in my hair. My step dad braided my hair and when they were like yeah you step dad that hurt me. His the only father figure in my like and his dying. that really hit me. yeah he may not be biological my dad but he was there for when others weren't. yes he did bad things such as gang activity but living in the place I lived that stuff was like family. They made me feel like I wasn't a part of my family because of my color. I really am sorry and I overreacted and needed to get that off my chest. I'm also sorry for pretending to be someone else. That was an asshole move of me. I try my best to be better and not do dumb shit like that. I honestly get where yawl are coming from and I apologize for not admitting it sooner. I respect each of yawls opinions.
just stuff like this is triggering anddddd yeah just keep in mind others have their own opinions and they may differ from yours. i like to keep some of my more..controversial thoughts in my head. thanks for apologizing, its a long paragraph lol
