Had to go to my ED doctor/therapist shii and found out that I might need to be hospitalized for my ED since I didn't eat anything almost every day for months I've improved but the damage was done and now my parents have to supervize if I'm eating or not I cant eat alone I fucking hate it sm like no I don't want to eat my body I hate it my body my stomach my thighs my waist its getting bigger everything is let me stop eating I don't want to get bigger no no not again i dont want to be hospitalized but no I don't want to eat!!!! I cant do it I cant!! I started binge eating again and I hate it sm!!! I'm getting chubbier by the day my thighs are huge and I hate my stomach so much!!!!!!!!!!!!