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[taesshlong]

Hey guys... I'm kinda bad talking to support groups because of many reasons.... I came here today to talk about what's been heavy on my noggin...

So 4 years ago my favorite gram has passed away I was 17 and my brother was like 21 I believe,I can't talk about her much because how much memories we had together, we were really close my cousins and my brother were never around much because they had there own lives and gf and friends to see.. well in 11 days I'll be 21 and I'm not really ready for it without her if you can't tell I really don't wanna turn that old. It's unfair she was around when he was 21 but now me... I'm not trying to sound selfish about it but I regret not seeing her...

hey, that doesn't make you selfish at all. it's actually really common with losing loved ones, they were there at certain times and they go, and you wish they were back for your certain time. i'ved never really lost anyone close to me- like someone who isn't an idol? sakkdjad and i'm still going through it, and for you to just be able to get out of bed makes you so, so strong. you're not selfish for thinking this. when someone passes, everyone goes through it, but usually the closer ones take brunt of it. it's okay to miss her and wish she was still here for you. that's so normal and it will never make you selfish.
i wish you the best, happiest early birthday, and i hope these intense feeling lessen atleast a little. /gen^

 

[renspace]

If you’re searching for that one person that will change your life, take a look in the mirror.

 

[Thatlittledork2017]

I know this

hey, that doesn't make you selfish at all. it's actually really common with losing loved ones, they were there at certain times and they go, and you wish they were back for your certain time. i'ved never really lost anyone close to me- like someone who isn't an idol? sakkdjad and i'm still going through it, and for you to just be able to get out of bed makes you so, so strong. you're not selfish for thinking this. when someone passes, everyone goes through it, but usually the closer ones take brunt of it. it's okay to miss her and wish she was still here for you. that's so normal and it will never make you selfish.
i wish you the best, happiest early birthday, and i hope these intense feeling lessen atleast a little. /gen^

I know this maybe odd but I carry a black cat lighter with me everywhere I go because 1 she loved black cats and I adopted her black cat lotus who is sweet.. honestly I wanna cry at night now because she isn't here..... I hate going to work because it drains me or I didn't wanna be there...

 

[Thatlittledork2017]

Thanks you for the early birthday wish but I'll take a screenshot of your post so I can rr read it when it's hard...

 

[yawnzzn]

I hate how my family treats me like a nuisance just because i said i don't wanna do the dishes... who wants to do the dishes

 

[yawnzzn]

these people find a problem with EVERYTHING i do. even when i do nothing it's a problem. why can't they just worry about their own lives before looking at mine and trying to assume i'm such a big bad wolf

 

[taesshlong]

i'm so tired of everything i do being wrong. i'm trying so hard, and i'm trying to do the chores i'm supposed to, and when i do them, there's no "good job!" or anything, it's all just "but [insert number] isn't enough. your siblings are doing more!" yeah, well my siblings also don't have MDD and such lack of motivation they don't even wanna get up for food/water, so yeah.
also, i'd really like if my parents could stop using my he/him pronouns just in front of my therapist. i know what they're trying to do. i feel so bad cause i have a huge thing with pronouns, and it's really difficult for me to be misgendered, but i'd honestly rather be misgendered than having my correct pronouns used whenever they're around my therapist. i'm not deaf, i can hear the pronouns, but how come it's only then? shouldn't i be correctly pronounced all of the time instead of when i'm with my therapist?

 

[taesshlong]

i'm so tired of everything i do being wrong. i'm trying so hard, and i'm trying to do the chores i'm supposed to, and when i do them, there's no "good job!" or anything, it's all just "but [insert number] isn't enough. your siblings are doing more!" yeah, well my siblings also don't have MDD and such lack of motivation they don't even wanna get up for food/water, so yeah.
also, i'd really like if my parents could stop using my he/him pronouns just in front of my therapist. i know what they're trying to do. i feel so bad cause i have a huge thing with pronouns, and it's really difficult for me to be misgendered, but i'd honestly rather be misgendered than having my correct pronouns used whenever they're around my therapist. i'm not deaf, i can hear the pronouns, but how come it's only then? shouldn't i be correctly pronounced all of the time instead of when i'm with my therapist?

also, almost 5 more days until i have a breakdown we love triggering dates /s

 

[yawnzzn]

ngl i sometimes have a lingering fear of my toxic ex. i get scared that they might be watching me i know they aren't but its still an irrational fear of mine. I remember when we broke up i remember them stalking my social media and all the stuff they put me through has caused a lot of trauma especially when i enter relationships (any kind of relationship not just romantic). we online dated so i don't think they're physically stalking me or anything but it's so easy to find me on my social media accounts. what if they search my name and my accounts come up and they just stalk me? what if they're laughing at me? not like i'd care if that idiot was laughing at me, but that's rude what if they still hate me for dumping them? even though they did nothing but rotten my mental health it's specific things that they did that are so memorable, that when i see other ppl do it i get suspicious and i start overthinking "what if that's them coming back to get revenge on me or something?" i hope i can get over my irrational fear of my ex one day

 

[yawnzzn]

ngl i sometimes have a lingering fear of my toxic ex. i get scared that they might be watching me i know they aren't but its still an irrational fear of mine. I remember when we broke up i remember them stalking my social media and all the stuff they put me through has caused a lot of trauma especially when i enter relationships (any kind of relationship not just romantic). we online dated so i don't think they're physically stalking me or anything but it's so easy to find me on my social media accounts. what if they search my name and my accounts come up and they just stalk me? what if they're laughing at me? not like i'd care if that idiot was laughing at me, but that's rude what if they still hate me for dumping them? even though they did nothing but rotten my mental health it's specific things that they did that are so memorable, that when i see other ppl do it i get suspicious and i start overthinking "what if that's them coming back to get revenge on me or something?" i hope i can get over my irrational fear of my ex one day

irrational fear or trauma? idek anymore

 

[daileee-in-orbit]

ngl i sometimes have a lingering fear of my toxic ex. i get scared that they might be watching me i know they aren't but its still an irrational fear of mine. I remember when we broke up i remember them stalking my social media and all the stuff they put me through has caused a lot of trauma especially when i enter relationships (any kind of relationship not just romantic). we online dated so i don't think they're physically stalking me or anything but it's so easy to find me on my social media accounts. what if they search my name and my accounts come up and they just stalk me? what if they're laughing at me? not like i'd care if that idiot was laughing at me, but that's rude what if they still hate me for dumping them? even though they did nothing but rotten my mental health it's specific things that they did that are so memorable, that when i see other ppl do it i get suspicious and i start overthinking "what if that's them coming back to get revenge on me or something?" i hope i can get over my irrational fear of my ex one day

i've never been in a relationship before, but here are some suggestions:
- if they try stalking u again, completely ignore them ! if u confront them, they'll know their stalking is "working", which could further escalate the situation
- talk to a close friend or family member (they might have better advice)
- if u feel uncomfortable with the fact that they can see your social media, maybe make your accounts private or block them?
- be confident !! looking at how you interact with others on the forums, i think you're a really great person, don't let one person bring you down

i'm positive you'll get over your fear, so if you need any extra support or even just a little mood-booster, i'll be here waiting for u !!

 

[yawnzzn]

i've never been in a relationship before, but here are some suggestions:
- if they try stalking u again, completely ignore them ! if u confront them, they'll know their stalking is "working", which could further escalate the situation
- talk to a close friend or family member (they might have better advice)
- if u feel uncomfortable with the fact that they can see your social media, maybe make your accounts private or block them?
- be confident !! looking at how you interact with others on the forums, i think you're a really great person, don't let one person bring you down

i'm positive you'll get over your fear, so if you need any extra support or even just a little mood-booster, i'll be here waiting for u !!

thank u!! <3 you're very kind <33 i wish i could block them but they changed their account, its okay tho i can change my account so they can't find me :>

 

[daileee-in-orbit]

thank u!! <3 you're very kind <33 i wish i could block them but they changed their account, its okay tho i can change my account so they can't find me :>

np, i like helping ppl out
that's a good idea !!

 

[lynch.]

TW // Toxic ex, cussing

This motherfucker has the audacity to DM, spark a convo, and just out of fucking nowhere tell me
"oh yea and when I was looking thru all the pics you sent me I thought 'damn I lost a work of art God gave me'.. "
BIITCH NO SHIT IM A WORK OF ART IM THE MOTHERFUCKING MONA LISA, FUCK YOU, YOU WERE FUCKING STUPID BACK THEN AND ONLY NOW YOU'RE REALIZING HOW MUCH OF A BAD BIITCH FUCKING GODDESS I AM? FUCK YOU, YOU ARE NOT GETTING THIS BACK LMAO

 

[yawnzzn]

TW // Toxic ex, cussing

This motherfucker has the audacity to DM, spark a convo, and just out of fucking nowhere tell me
"oh yea and when I was looking thru all the pics you sent me I thought 'damn I lost a work of art God gave me'.. "
BIITCH NO SHIT IM A WORK OF ART IM THE MOTHERFUCKING MONA LISA, FUCK YOU, YOU WERE FUCKING STUPID BACK THEN AND ONLY NOW YOU'RE REALIZING HOW MUCH OF A BAD BIITCH FUCKING GODDESS I AM? FUCK YOU, YOU ARE NOT GETTING THIS BACK LMAO

omg my toxic ex did something like that after we broke up for the first time. ur right u are a work of art and ur ex is a piece a trash that doesn't deserve the time of day

 

[lynch.]

omg my toxic ex did something like that after we broke up for the first time. ur right u are a work of art and ur ex is a piece a trash that doesn't deserve the time of day

lmao he's an a$$hole but he's fun to talk to sometimes so thats probably why I haven't blocked him yet ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°

 

[daileee-in-orbit]

lmao he's an a$$hole but he's fun to talk to sometimes so thats probably why I haven't blocked him yet ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°

i see... ok but if he does something rude or creepy again, just ignore him !! don't let him get the satisfaction of bothering u
your ex sounds like a horrible person, it's clear that you're better without him

 

[gwslay]

I feel like everyone is against me or hates me for many reasons :/

 

[Dreamer]

I feel like everyone is against me or hates me for many reasons :/

That's not true I don't hate and I'm not against you.

 

[LemonMomorangé]

Spoiler: TW// Paranoia

I would post this on HC but ive become very distant with those there
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Ive become anxious ans paranoid that I will be forgotten, or that everyone will leave.
I didn't do anything wrong to make anyone leave, I guess people get bored with me