I'm so sick of constantly being scared. I can't stand feeling so afraid of talking to my family because I don't want them to hate me. I'm sick of being jealous of confident people. I freaking hate looking the mirror and wondering why I can't just do what I want? why am I so scared of being rejected? why am I scared to talk to my peers because I'm afraid they'll think I'm annoying or mean? why isn't my medicine helping? I feel bad for venting and crying to my mom constantly and saying "I dont know" when she asks me how she can help. I'm tired of being a moody lump one second and happy the next. I'm so trapped and consumed by being afraid I don't know what to do
I'm so sick of shit
