❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[••• #2 yuri lover .⸝⸝⸝.•••]

do i need to talk more or less?

 

[••• #2 yuri lover .⸝⸝⸝.•••]

do i need to talk more or less?

i feel like i hate everyone who just acts like a know it all
like yes i get it my spelling is ass
but again you know what i am talking about and wtf do you have to be such a mood killer
when i am actually locked in and in actually doing something good and im interested in whats going on
everyone just ignores me, and when i am actually doing the shitties things ppl point out that i am being annoying
okay i get it but, really all in need is one real friend, but i can't really get one who won't talk bad about me behind my back,
i have 2 sides and i am non of them
i feel nothing for anyone all my feelings are gone
i feel alone, i feel like no one understands me
i just want to scream but i can't even do that withought looking weird in other peoples eyes
writting this is calming my mind, it means so much to me thinking other people might understand me
but i just really really don't want to be judge based off on what other people think about me
i want people to take time to learn about me before they judge me

 

[sᴇᴜʟʟᴏᴠᴇsᴍᴇ]

so now we're lying and telling ppl my business? oh okay.

 

[sᴇᴜʟʟᴏᴠᴇsᴍᴇ]

you ever feel yourself falling deeper and deeper into that depressive state and you cant do anything about it except brace for impact

 

[gyuuop]

i don’t know what part of myself is real anymore. sometimes i question my personality, is my personality just a combination of people i’ve met in my life or is my personality just a personality i think is likeable. i hate this about myself. i think of myself as a concept or object rather than a human. i’m not sure if this makes sense, it’s weird that whenever i talk to people it doesn’t feel real or genuine. i think thats why i avoid unless art conversations. but then again i wanna be somebody people can go to and ask for help. who am i if i can’t be helpful, who am i if i can’t satisfy somebody. i’ve noticed ive had more horrible thoughts if you know what i mean, i seriously don’t know what to do with myself. and i honestly don’t know who i am on a deeper level. how can somebody love me or get to know me when i don’t even know who i am

 

[.𝐕𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐊𝐢 ✮]

Maybe I’m js being petty and stupid and jealous, but I don’t want the person to be there.I don’t want everything I’ve got, literally all my friends js to leave..idk tbh..I feel so stupid for getting upset like this and ik they want her and I can’t js be the one holding back. But thats what I’m doing rn. I js thought I’d have a little more time.

 

[sᴇᴜʟʟᴏᴠᴇsᴍᴇ]

when will she wake up to reality to realize that none of it is normal?

that they all just so happen to be signs of depression

the same signs that she saw herself go through countless of times before

oh cara mia someone please I'm begging you, wake her up, my baby girl wouldn't like this.

she wouldn't like seeing her older self doubt her "pretty princessness"
she wouldn't like seeing her older self ridicule her for small honest mistakes
she wouldn't like seeing her older self not be able to get out of bed some days and function like a normal person
she wouldn't like seeing her older self starve, out of hatred for her own body and the tiredness of life
she wouldn't like seeing her older self fail.

wake up to reality, for her, for the 4 year old girl who thought she was the prettiest girl at the party, the 4 year old girl who liked unicorns and pink, the 4 year old girl who still played with Barbies, for my 4 year old little girl who was forced to grow up too quickly, the one who could eat whatever without worrying about the number on the scale.

if you cant do it for you then do it for the child inside you, for the old you, stay strong for the girl who went to tea parties with her stuffed animals, you'll soon realize that all along you're still that girl who watched shimmer&shine wishing upon stars at 11:11 that you too could have a genie of your own. You are the genie, you can make all her wishes come true, but first make your own wish come true, be successful and survive for her if not for yourself, if not for your friends or family, do it for her. Because no matter what you do she'll always find a way to be so proud of you, to admire you, to "I wanna be like you when I grow up."​

 

[sᴇᴜʟʟᴏᴠᴇsᴍᴇ]

I cant remember the last time I cried or showed any true emotion because I'm so emotionally constipated and i've repressed my emotions for so long now I cant cry or get sad I just feel void, I laugh and smile but how much of it is real?

 

[Worsham2]

I’ve been dealing with some stress lately, so I thought joining this space might help.

If anyone wants to share how they’re feeling today, I’m here to listen.

Sending warm thoughts to everyone.

 

[꒰ ᵎᵎ 𝗍ꪱᜒ𝗋𝗋ɑოꪱᜒ𝖿𝖿υ ✮₊ ⊹ 📷 ꒱]

I’ve been dealing with some stress lately, so I thought joining this space might help.

If anyone wants to share how they’re feeling today, I’m here to listen.

Sending warm thoughts to everyone.

heyy.. can I pm u? <3

 

[Kenji]

 

[𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘺_𝘴𝘢𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘢♡]

seasonal depression kicking my ass

 

[𝕮𝖗𝖞_𝕭𝖆𝖇𝖞]

heyy.. can I pm u? <3

do u want to talk?

 

[꒰ ᵎᵎ 𝗍ꪱᜒ𝗋𝗋ɑოꪱᜒ𝖿𝖿υ ✮₊ ⊹ 📷 ꒱]

do u want to talk?

yes..

 

[𝕮𝖗𝖞_𝕭𝖆𝖇𝖞]

yes..

js dm me

 

[razzy]

nvm

 

[꒰ ᵎᵎ 𝗍ꪱᜒ𝗋𝗋ɑოꪱᜒ𝖿𝖿υ ✮₊ ⊹ 📷 ꒱]

js dm me

alr ty.. <3

 

[.𝐕𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐊𝐢 ✮]

Yeah sure blame me for every mf thing that goes wrong

 

[StarlightSilverCrown2]

its always so frustrating, I've been unemployed since 2024 and just got a job, truthfully I didn't have many options and don't want people around me paying my bills, so I went and got a job after 5 failed interviews which I know isn't bad.

But I didn't realize this job is 'permanent part time' which is very strange wording, as I've been working far more hours over the last three months.

I felt really bad and really guilty for calling my manager to say I couldn't make it today as I was still dealing with my fever that he knew about since yesterday (which I showed up to work and didn't complain at all), I have to be up and out of the apartment by 9:30 to catch my bus, thankfully he has been one of the most understanding bosses I've ever had. We cut back my hours and he assured me since my training is over, I will no longer be working 8 hours

 

[StarlightSilverCrown2]

its always so frustrating, I've been unemployed since 2024 and just got a job, truthfully I didn't have many options and don't want people around me paying my bills, so I went and got a job after 5 failed interviews which I know isn't bad.

But I didn't realize this job is 'permanent part time' which is very strange wording, as I've been working far more hours over the last three months.

I felt really bad and really guilty for calling my manager to say I couldn't make it today as I was still dealing with my fever that he knew about since yesterday (which I showed up to work and didn't complain at all), I have to be up and out of the apartment by 9:30 to catch my bus, thankfully he has been one of the most understanding bosses I've ever had. We cut back my hours and he assured me since my training is over, I will no longer be working 8 hours

Today I've been sleeping, taking medicine and just relaxing. I'm not sure if its the anxiety but I feel bad for not being there, even though I know I wouldn't be doing anything, I said I'd be in on sunday, but part of me can't help but wonder if I was just over working myself, as I haven't called in or skip a day in 3 months. I do feel a lot better already.

I don't get how people can work full time, cheers to those who do, I respect that so much. this is crazy. but I said I wanted a new phone, so I ain't stopping for sure, just need to change my pace of how I'm dealing with things i think