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thugging it out cuz i'm so OG and so cool

 

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sigh ok i need to shut up and lock in

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simon says urin real vibe killer

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ok im done

 

[dumpling.hynjinnn]

This is prob gonna weird someone out..

Spoiler: rant

My life is fucked I'm literally going back to who I was 3 years ago. I barely have the energy to take care of myself, it just feels like I have a ton of weight on my shoulders and nothing can be done about it. Like my dad is cussing me out over the phone daily because I want to stay with my mom and he can't get taxes out of me anymore and cussing out my mom... He's the reason I got depression and anxiety. It just makes me wanna kms so bad. I barely have enough energy to brush my teeth or clean my room and my mom barely makes it better shes always saying how I eat up all the food, saying I'm nothing but a waste of space and a lazy son of b**ch.. like you know I have all this mental stuff going on and you still say this and wonder why I cry at night. My dad and my grandma are the reason I lost so much weight since they always said "You should eat less Sariah (my cousin) isn't that big" that lit made me not eat almost last school years summer break so I drastically dropped from 168 to 130 probably lower now.

 

[ʚ 🥟ɞ 𝔤𝔬 𝔮𝔲𝔬𝔨𝔬𝔬𝔨𝔦𝔢 𝔤𝔬 🎸⋆🐿️˚｡⋆]

So at a very, very young age (I was 6 or 8) I was exposed to S3X and the hub, and it's now affecting me every single time I see orange and black or white and blue. I get so uncomfortable, even with food like peaches, bananas ect. ik you may think "oh my god, Azzys overreacting" I'm not. it affected me insanely im really scared im so fucking scared bro i cant get it out my head its like printed into my brain but i do feel like im getting better at the same time i dont think about stuff like that anymore i swear im getting better but someone in my class is making fun of me for it and thats also affecting me he keeps bringing it up like saying "oh you want this hmm? you want it dont you disgusting wh0re" and like bro no i dont i really fucking dont im tired of being a disgusting weirdo (btw i dont think of people in a sexual manner in any way its only when someone brings it up then it sticks to my head for a week or a month) im fucking shaking writing this bro i wanna get better i really wanna get better i miss my old self where i didnt think abt stuff where i didnt wanna kms im scared of what will happen im scared if my parents find out im scared if my siblings find out IM SCARED IM SO FUCKING DONE I DONT IF IM HYPERSEXUAL OR SOMETHING BUT THIS IS WEIRD so fucking weird i feel disgusted with myself and im tired of myself bro im so scared guys srsly im scared the boys in my class bullys me for this and shit
i dont know what i did to deserve this.

i swear im getting better tho i just needed to let this out