โWhy did I have to have you?! HUH!โ My mom said as she's hitting me with a bat not caring if I bleed out or cried out in pain.
โM-mom i-it hurts!โ I cried out in pain wanting her to stop but that only made things worse. Of course, if I cry, beg, or let out a scream loud enough for people outside to hear she will beat me to the point I can't get up and lock me up in the basement when you can't see anything.
โSHUT UP YOU F*CKING YOU DISGRACE! I HOPE YOU DISAPPEAR!โ With each swing, I can feel her hatred for me as she keeps hitting me with full force, never stopping. Each hit left a sting on my body leaving a dark, ugly, bruising mark on me. At the rate she was hitting my limp body you would think she was trying to kill me.
โAHH! IโM SORRY!โ I woke up in a cold sweat. Sweat dripped down my face, shaking like someone is trying to wake me up from my sleep paralysis. I sit up to look around my surroundings.
โWhere- oh I'm at my aunt's house.โ I get up from my bed and waddle into my bathroom to splash some cold water on my face, hoping it would wake me up.
โ I have school tomorrowโฆ.I guess I should go back to bed.โ I looked up from the sink and flinched at the sight I saw, โC-Come down it...it's just in my head. They're not realโ I drag my feet back to my bed, not happy that I have to go to school the next day. I lay in my bed slowly drifting back to sleep not mentally preparing for what's going to happen tomorrow.
BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEEEP.
โGod shut up!โ I said as a hand peeks out from the covers to toss the alarm clock to the other side of the room.
โHey Alex, it's time to get up sweetie.โ My auntie says when she gently knocks on the door waiting for my answer. I groaned as an answer and when she heard that she went downstairs to fix breakfast. You can hear her footsteps slowly fading away, hearing the creaks of the stairs as she gets farther and farther from my room.
โTime to get ready.โ I said to myself when I force myself to get up and take a hot shower that a normal person would burn their skin if it was sensitive to the heat, when they take a hot shower it makes their skin red like they had stayed out in the sun too long, then put on what you would call โemoโ clothes on then I brush my teeth like my life depended on it.
โI dOnโT uNdErStAnD wHy YoU bRuSh YoUr TeEtH ThAt HaRd.โ I said, mocking what Mark said yesterday when I told them what I did this morning.
โIdiotsโ I sat on the rails that are connected to the wall that people use to walk down the stairs and slide my way down and hop off the rails.
Iโm not a fan of talking to family members so when I come down stairs I grab a piece of toast and head out the door.
โIโm heading out.โ I told my aunt without making eye contact, but knowing her sheโll probably try to convince me to eat breakfast.
โBut Alex I made break-โ I cut her off because 1, I don't want to be late to go to our spot, and 2, I DON'T want to do this now. My parents kinda ruin eating for me, always saying โYou should stop eating youโre going to get fat.โ โyour such a fata**โ
โLook Auntie, thanks for making breakfast but I don't want any.โ And with that I headed out the door, grabbing my stuff for school and sprinted out the door to our meet up spot.
Mark turned around when he heard a pair of feet sprinting toward them โWow look who decided to show up.โ
โS..shut up mark i ran down here.โ I breathlessly said as I bent over my knees trying to regain my breath once again.
โHey baeโ Marco said as he got up from sitting underneath a tree, proceeded to make his way toward me and gave me a kiss.
โHey love. Is everyone here?โ I said, not really ready to go to class but then again i don't really have a choice. When everyone nodded in agreement we made our way inside the school and sat in the cafeteria until the bell rang, signaling us to our different classes.
When me and my friends split up going to our different classes I went by Mr. Nick's Office and knocked on his door.
โUm- Mr. Nick, are you here?โ I ask nervously, still not used to talking to an adult, let alone an adult who is paid to help or โpretend to help or careโ.
โYes im here you can come in.โ
When I heard that I opened the door and closed it behind me, I walked up to a bean bag chair and sat down.
โNow what can I do for you Alex?โ He said, as he finished typing up what he was doing and faced me. You would think that a therapist's room smelled like old people or had an old vintage smell, but no, his room smelled like coffee with a hint of Cinnamon. Hey, I'm not complaining.
โHey Mr. Nick.โ I said sighing because I REALLY didn't want to be here, but I didnโt have a choice did I? I donโt know why, but heโs the only ADULT that I feel comfortable with and feel like he actually cares about me. Well, besides my friends and boyfriend of course, but my parents made it hard for me to trust anyone let alone an adult.
โWhatโs wrong Alex? Is it that nightmare again?..โ He asked, not looking up from getting the bowl of candy and stuffed animals from his drawer.
I nodded as I went to grab a handful of candy in one hand and grabbed the stuffed Bear in the other. The reason why I have stuffed animals is because I start shaking and fidgeting when I'm venting and eating sweets to calm me down. I guessed he noticed because the next day I came by he had two stuffed animals on his desk and a bowl of my favorite candies. He did say I can't have a lot of candy, so I just take a handful and the bear plushie.
โWas it the same one or a different one?โ He asked, writing notes in his notebook. He sometimes lets me write or draw in the back of his notebook if I am in the mood. Heโs like a father figure to me, better than my actual โfatherโ, If you can call him a fatherโฆ..
โNo...It was the time I accidentally broke the vase and mom got mad. You can feel her rage throughout the house. She usually uses a belt, a stick, or something that with enough force can leave a mark...Instead, this time she uses a bat. Not just a regular baseball bat, but a metal bat and the way she was hitting me, anyone could feel how she wanted to slaughter me right there on the spot and in this situation, she did. โ I said, gripping the stuff bear like my life as of right now was in danger. And Mr. Nick just stayed silent. Not breathing a single word, the whole room just filled with my voice bouncing off the walls repeatedly.
โ ...she kept hitting over and over and over and over until she could see I wasn't moving. I wasn't dead though I was close to dying, and just as she was about to land the final blow, I woke upโฆ. Only to find out it was all in my head.โ I didnโt have to look up to feel the worry from him.
Since I was supposed to be in the first period we talked for an hour until it was time for me to my second block. Math.
I get up from the bean bag,ay bye to Mr. Nick and leave his office.I head to my second class which is math. I walked into the classroom and sat down in my seat playing my music until the teacher came in and started teaching.
It's only been 10 minutes and here I am, already bored out of my mind.
โOf course I would be bored in math. Math is like the most boringest class everโ I thought to myself for saying something stupid. I mean at least I got a good grade in this class, even though I rarely pay attention in it.
Weโre in class for 90 minutes, so as of right now we have the rest of the class to do whatever as long as weโre quiet. Of course, I decided to go to sleep til the third period and that's how my day went. Went to class. Did work or assignments. Get done early. Get bored. Sleep until it's time to go home.
