Im sorry to hear that, wat ur feeling is COMPLETELY normal. Moving n leaving ur friends is a real loss fr, even if u moving out is a gud thing. It prob feels like ur loosing everything. Surely they can stay in touch w u right? Ik long distance is really hard but at least u can stay in touch. Wherever ur moving its a different state new school and u can get new friends ofc u don't have to replace them and it will be hard but u cant only focus on the bad side right? Talk to ur friends exchange numbers, insta accs etc. And ofc u don't have to rush urself
Wat u r describing doesn't sound like disrespect, it sounds like sm1 who cares deeply n is trying their best. Struggling doesn’t make u bad or unfaithful, it makes u HUMAN. Learning, growing, n following rules is hard for a lot of people, even if they don’t admit it. Progress is NOT a race n comparing yourself to others will only hurt u. U DONT have to be perfect to be worthy, loved, or forgiven no one is perfect. I honestly believe effort matters more than perfection, n the fact that u keep trying says so much about ur heart
I'm sorry now I feel like I'm overreacting sorry if I annoyed any1
but ugh I feel so strange, I don't know how else to explain it but diadfs'dfjsdifjas'ijf!.
thank you so much
I'm crying now I tried to vent to my BSF thinking okay she gets me right? And she told me to suck it up bc I was crying while venting. I know her since fucking junior high and she said its not a big deal. she said that cancer is not even that big of a deal and then she said "By the way do you have any cash I'm going to the mall" Idek what to do I think I'm gonna go thru depression now I cant even do anything properly the only thing I'm good at is acting happy. Yesterday I had a panic attack Infront of my neighbor I was so embarrassed usually when I had 1 Infront of my friends they would just leave me but at least he helped me I barely talk to him the last I talked to him I threw water at him saying he needs to be holy. but he he took me to the hospital and tdy he came again to ask if I'm doing ok idk what kind of friends I have if even a guy I barely talk to and mostly fight w helps me more. Im scared that if I go to the hospital again my cancer will get worser I don't want anymore treatments it fucking hurts. Oh and 1 of my friends said the hospital is my 2nd home when I told that to my BSF while I was venting she said "no shes wrong." "its ur 1st home" like wtf? that fucking hurts that the BSF who knows everything bout u all ur secrets is saying that now
AH OFC!
Talked with Jackson about it and he was really kind, these kinds of things happen. Is this what its like to have a healthy workplace? I was so nervous going into work this morning and was so relived.
