❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[ᥫ᭡ 𐌌𐌉𐌌𐌉]

i am moving to a different state where i don't know anyone and I feel so alone
its like i am greatful that i can move to a better place but i dn't want to move schools and loose all my friends

Im sorry to hear that, wat ur feeling is COMPLETELY normal. Moving n leaving ur friends is a real loss fr, even if u moving out is a gud thing. It prob feels like ur loosing everything. Surely they can stay in touch w u right? Ik long distance is really hard but at least u can stay in touch. Wherever ur moving its a different state new school and u can get new friends ofc u don't have to replace them and it will be hard but u cant only focus on the bad side right? Talk to ur friends exchange numbers, insta accs etc. And ofc u don't have to rush urself

 

[ᥫ᭡ 𐌌𐌉𐌌𐌉]

Everything I do makes me feel guilty
nothing feels right

Wat u r describing doesn't sound like disrespect, it sounds like sm1 who cares deeply n is trying their best. Struggling doesn’t make u bad or unfaithful, it makes u HUMAN. Learning, growing, n following rules is hard for a lot of people, even if they don’t admit it. Progress is NOT a race n comparing yourself to others will only hurt u. U DONT have to be perfect to be worthy, loved, or forgiven no one is perfect. I honestly believe effort matters more than perfection, n the fact that u keep trying says so much about ur heart

 

[ᥫ᭡ 𐌌𐌉𐌌𐌉]

bro fuck my tryna comfort ppl skills I'm so bad at this

 

[ᥫ᭡ 𐌌𐌉𐌌𐌉]

I wanna cry so badly. None of my friends actually like me and just want to use me for my money. I keep on getting panic attacks randomly my cancer always gets worser I have no hope for myself anymore. Whenever i try to vent I feel like I'm annoying ppl I have no one. My family doesn't give a shit bout my anymore and it honestly feels like I'm a orphan not even my own siblings care bout me. It just makes me cry I just escaped from a toxic and @busive bf and my friends said "He's so hot why did you even break up with him" Like what the fuck? will u ignore the part where he fucking hit me? If I try to contact my dad he said "Dont talk to me unless u will marry him" He wants me to marry a guy who's fucking nasty and wants to treat me like a maid. My professors is being so weird around me these days. I almost fractured my arm 3 days ago I'm still sick but none of my friends care and only ask me for my money I keep on puking and I don't even wanna go to the hospital bc I'm fucking scared I don't even find out bout my cancer anymore its scary asf and the fact that I don't even have any1 just hurts. I keep on acting happy like my life is fucking perfect irl and online as well. Everyone thinks I have a fucking happy life when its bad its really bad and when I stop talking I bet no one will even care on this web bc why tf care she was annoying ANWS. There's so many stuff I can't even say bc this is a public thread

I'm sorry now I feel like I'm overreacting sorry if I annoyed any1

 

[StarlightSilverCrown2]

Sometimes I can't help but feel so stupid, sure I was a little stressed out today but it was a situation I could have totally avoided.

Although I totally get why we have timers, having the timer at work makes me feel even more stressed out, maybe I was focusing on it to much today. I apologized to my co worker and she was super super nice about it and assured me it was okay, but I still feel bad for letting her see that panic attack. I'm not usually so hyper fixated on it, half the reason it was so long was because I had to deliver the cake to the customer at the front of the store (so it sat there longer).

I'll talk with Jackson tomorrow if he's there to explain the long time so he doesn't worry or talk with her as it was my thing.

 

[StarlightSilverCrown2]

Sometimes I can't help but feel so stupid, sure I was a little stressed out today but it was a situation I could have totally avoided.

Although I totally get why we have timers, having the timer at work makes me feel even more stressed out, maybe I was focusing on it to much today. I apologized to my co worker and she was super super nice about it and assured me it was okay, but I still feel bad for letting her see that panic attack. I'm not usually so hyper fixated on it, half the reason it was so long was because I had to deliver the cake to the customer at the front of the store (so it sat there longer).

I'll talk with Jackson tomorrow if he's there to explain the long time so he doesn't worry or talk with her as it was my thing.

but ugh I feel so strange, I don't know how else to explain it but diadfs'dfjsdifjas'ijf!.

I only work to 6pm tomorrow and am seeing my therapist on monday so I'll be fine. (It's been a long time since I had a panic attack to), but ugh, how embarrassing.

 

[✧・Gia_shea・✧]

Wat u r describing doesn't sound like disrespect, it sounds like sm1 who cares deeply n is trying their best. Struggling doesn’t make u bad or unfaithful, it makes u HUMAN. Learning, growing, n following rules is hard for a lot of people, even if they don’t admit it. Progress is NOT a race n comparing yourself to others will only hurt u. U DONT have to be perfect to be worthy, loved, or forgiven no one is perfect. I honestly believe effort matters more than perfection, n the fact that u keep trying says so much about ur heart

Wat u r describing doesn't sound like disrespect, it sounds like sm1 who cares deeply n is trying their best. Struggling doesn’t make u bad or unfaithful, it makes u HUMAN. Learning, growing, n following rules is hard for a lot of people, even if they don’t admit it. Progress is NOT a race n comparing yourself to others will only hurt u. U DONT have to be perfect to be worthy, loved, or forgiven no one is perfect. I honestly believe effort matters more than perfection, n the fact that u keep trying says so much about ur heart

thank you so much

 

[ᥫ᭡ 𐌌𐌉𐌌𐌉]

I wanna cry so badly. None of my friends actually like me and just want to use me for my money. I keep on getting panic attacks randomly my cancer always gets worser I have no hope for myself anymore. Whenever i try to vent I feel like I'm annoying ppl I have no one. My family doesn't give a shit bout my anymore and it honestly feels like I'm a orphan not even my own siblings care bout me. It just makes me cry I just escaped from a toxic and @busive bf and my friends said "He's so hot why did you even break up with him" Like what the fuck? will u ignore the part where he fucking hit me? If I try to contact my dad he said "Dont talk to me unless u will marry him" He wants me to marry a guy who's fucking nasty and wants to treat me like a maid. My professors is being so weird around me these days. I almost fractured my arm 3 days ago I'm still sick but none of my friends care and only ask me for my money I keep on puking and I don't even wanna go to the hospital bc I'm fucking scared I don't even find out bout my cancer anymore its scary asf and the fact that I don't even have any1 just hurts. I keep on acting happy like my life is fucking perfect irl and online as well. Everyone thinks I have a fucking happy life when its bad its really bad and when I stop talking I bet no one will even care on this web bc why tf care she was annoying ANWS. There's so many stuff I can't even say bc this is a public thread

I'm crying now I tried to vent to my BSF thinking okay she gets me right? And she told me to suck it up bc I was crying while venting. I know her since fucking junior high and she said its not a big deal. she said that cancer is not even that big of a deal and then she said "By the way do you have any cash I'm going to the mall" Idek what to do I think I'm gonna go thru depression now I cant even do anything properly the only thing I'm good at is acting happy. Yesterday I had a panic attack Infront of my neighbor I was so embarrassed usually when I had 1 Infront of my friends they would just leave me but at least he helped me I barely talk to him the last I talked to him I threw water at him saying he needs to be holy. but he he took me to the hospital and tdy he came again to ask if I'm doing ok idk what kind of friends I have if even a guy I barely talk to and mostly fight w helps me more. Im scared that if I go to the hospital again my cancer will get worser I don't want anymore treatments it fucking hurts. Oh and 1 of my friends said the hospital is my 2nd home when I told that to my BSF while I was venting she said "no shes wrong." "its ur 1st home" like wtf? that fucking hurts that the BSF who knows everything bout u all ur secrets is saying that now

 

[ᥫ᭡ 𐌌𐌉𐌌𐌉]

thank you so much

AH OFC!

 

[✧・Gia_shea・✧]

AH OFC!

 

[rei-x8]

My great grandpa just passed away.

 

[ᥫ᭡ 𐌌𐌉𐌌𐌉]

omg I'm so sorry to hear that

My great grandpa just passed away.

 

[StarlightSilverCrown2]

but ugh I feel so strange, I don't know how else to explain it but diadfs'dfjsdifjas'ijf!.

I only work to 6pm tomorrow and am seeing my therapist on monday so I'll be fine. (It's been a long time since I had a panic attack to), but ugh, how embarrassing.

Talked with Jackson about it and he was really kind, these kinds of things happen. Is this what its like to have a healthy workplace? I was so nervous going into work this morning and was so relived.

I'm just cooling down from a really good work out and watching dance practices. I feel better.

 

[‧˚꒰୭ ˚. onmyseul ‧˚꒰୭ ˚.]

that feeling when your mom js thinks shes so right even tho shes wrong so then when u tell the truth she js thinks ur lying so now I'm a "habitual liar" and I "don't blend in with the family"

 

[✧・Gia_shea・✧]

Big girls don't cry right?

 

[rei-x8]

i'm so insecure RN dude..

 

[✧・Gia_shea・✧]

The problem isn't you wanting a better life its that you didn't tell me we were moving to a whole different state until 2 days before

 

[✧・Gia_shea・✧]

And suddenly my house goes from my comfort place to the place I feel empty in

 

[rei-x8]

And suddenly my house goes from my comfort place to the place I feel empty in

do you wanna talk about it ml?

 

[rei-x8]

i'm so ugly. how jugyeong felt in true beauty is how I feel right now.